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Is it Right?

11 Oct

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When I went with my sister and saw Wayne Dyer speak in Atlanta is was magical. Wow, is really all that I can say. The energy in that room was electrifying. Dr. Dyer spoke about the book he had just released entitled ‘Wishes Fulfilled’ and he spoke about many of the main points of his message in the book. The following point really stuck with me.

It must feel natural to you. You have to be able to say to yourself ” Even if I don’t know how to do it, even if I have no experience, even if everyone has told me I can’t do it, my wish fulfilled feels natural to me!”

Last night as I drove to work and waited, nobody came. It was the first time in a month that I didn’t have at least one student. It does make you feel a bit defeated. As I drove home I began to feel a flurry of emotions. Things that caused me to really dig deep within myself to find the answers.

Does this feel natural to me? Is this right for me? Am I a fraud, a phony? 

Am I really meant to be a yoga teacher, a leader, a connector?

So how do you know when it’s right? Is there a magic formula for equating the “rightness” of something?

I suspect not but I do know a few things:

1. Is an old conversation you have about yourself  preventing you from feeling comfortable in your life? If so, what would happen if you took away that conversation and replaced it with one that serves you better?

2. Are you living your dream and not the dream that others have decided for you? If you are living your dream then give yourself some time and you will slip into your skin soon enough.

3. Fake it till you make it. If you love what you do but still feel a bit unsure of yourself then ‘Fake it till you make it.’ Wing it as they say. Eventually all the pieces will fall into place.

I thought about all the above things in relation to my situation. Here is what I cam up with.

I realized quickly that my ‘old and bothersome’ old conversations about myself are butting in and interfering with my ‘rightness’.

Old conversations like, “I am not good at this. I haven’t been doing yoga long enough. People are going to find out I am a fraud. I don’t know what I am doing. I am not as good as others, blah..blah…blah…”

I am not special we all do this, some to a deeper degree than others. 

Wanting to be at point Z before barely leaving point A. Yet another behavior that many of fall into. It’s a trap. Of course it doesn’t feel completely ‘right’ yet. I am barely beginning. I am a rookie. It is like a pair of leather pants that are brand new and never worn, it is going to take some time for them to fit all my curves and melt into my body just the way I want them to. It is going to take time for me to find my voice, to find my way of teaching, leading, and connecting.

I am a lover of yoga. I am a writer. I am a connector and sometimes I feel not quite right in my own shoes. 

Can you relate?

“Watch your thoughts, for they become words.  Watch your words, for they become actions.  Watch your actions, for they become habits. Watch your habits, for they become character. Watch your character, for it becomes your destiny.” – Unknown

Successful Summer Days

19 Jun

I was so worried when the summer was approaching about what I would do with the kids. I worried that I would not be able to find things to do with my kids ALL summer long. I worried about the heat, and not being able to take Blaise outside during the day. I was worried that we would have a repeat of last summer. Stuck inside, Blaise and PWS raging up a storm, and then he gained 4 pounds. I was worried that I wouldn’t have the energy or patience to make it through the long summer days. Are you seeing a theme here, yup, I WAS WORRIED!

I am completely amazed at how the last month has flown by. I am amazed at how I have managed to keep my kids active every single day, despite their unique needs. I am amazed at how in love I am with my kids. I am amazed at how patient I have been with my angels every single day. I am amazed at how much energy I have to run around with them all day, literally non-stop. I am amazed that through all of this I am about to finish my 200 hour yoga teacher training.

My life is so much a thing of awe for me. I am full of energy and ready to take on the day everyday with my kids. I am sure there are many people out there who think it is no big deal to have to entertain your kids all summer long. When you have 2 children with very unique needs and medical conditions it makes life way more complicated. Yet, through it all my kids are doing so well and so am I. There is only one more month left before they start school and I am not worried one bit about how it will go.

I will tell you this with absolute certainty. I am smoke free now and I feel the difference in my body, my mood, and my energy level. I believe letting go of this crutch has enabled me to spend more time out in the world again. I am a much happier and healthier mom. Yoga and meditation have also enabled me to have the patient and calm state of mind to handle each day.

I am totally exhausted now, slightly behind on the laundry, but my kids had a great day and the laundry can wait.

I would rather have a messy house for a day, if it meant that my kids were completely happy and living a full and adventurous life.

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